Im praying for Phil .. i beieve and feel that notnot ly is he my best friend .. i believe hes is the love of my life.. no man has ever been in love with me.. Ive been meantally abused most of my life.. no real father that guided me.. no male my whole life growing up was ever nice to me... my mother screamed at me every day all day when i was growing up.. im 50 years old and still does sometime.. i want love to be in love .. to be his choice. Its one thing i want before i pass away .. to finally feel happyness.