My children, good health results for us, financial relief, the pain, anxiety and despair in my heart I feel every day. I cannot feel anymore alone then I feel every day. The pain, despair, hopelessness, anxiety, flashbacks, nightmares are horrific, and it feels like nobody understands, I get judged, then I feel more alone. I feel like Jesus left me through all these trials. I go to church every night if possible and I go to confession every single week, just in case I have screwed up more. I desperately ask Jesus to help my children know Him and help me feel HIS peace in my heart so I feel HIS presence will help me find HIS peace.