Dear Saint Anthony, please wrap your arms around me, help me to stop crying and feeling so sad. Let me rejoice and the love of our Holy Spirit God, the father and the son and all very blessed mother. I am so very grateful for everything I have, but I am very lonely. Keep my Jackson safe let him know please that he’s truly loved. I wish I could have loved him for the rest of my life, but that’s not fair to him. Please help him with his drinking. Let him be a good father and may he have a wonderful life with some woman who will truly make him feel good about himself. He’s so smart And we had that passion for those children I don’t want to die Anthony, but I’m struggling struggling with that. Maybe you can ask the child Jesus to let me find that happiness again. I love the way I felt. I’m thankful for having experienced thankful for my beautiful home but help me to stop this crazy spending. I’m out of control , it all insecurity perhaps to belong to I will find peace, peace, and contentm