Dear Saint Anthony our blessed mother and holy spitit please have Jackson communicate with me before I leave Aruba. I think you inspired him to have that wonderful communication with me the other day. That’s what confuses me so. I came here truly, hoping to put my life into perspective and begin to forget him, and he calls and communicates with me in such a loving manner, and I completely melt I completely give and have no resistance. then I don’t hear from anymore. I ask him almost bake him to respond and he doesn’t. This is where I truly need your help. I need your arms around me and I need a circle of support. Perhaps he is unstable. Perhaps he is that loving man I fell in love with I don’t know , please help me to be confused and to determined once, and for what our relationship is if I should keep him in my life if I should pursue a loving relationship or a casual friendship or just forget him perhaps it’s time to forget all my African friends, except Ellen, please help me if I d