Diesen, Anthony, our blessed mother, our lady, Holy Spirit, Saint Michael, Saint Joseph Saint Jude. Please give me guidance and help right now. Yesterday was a very difficult day for me to learn that this man that I have loved for the last year is lying and a coward and an alcoholic. I will pray for him he does need help I believe he’s unbalanced. I’ve looked at many of the comments and interactions between us and I see now how the signs were there and I really didn’t want to see them. I prayed for you all the time every day to give me guidance and you did maybe I didn’t understand it completely Right now I need to end this chapter of my life in a professional and kind way. This man needs help and I need to move on. They will always be a special place in my heart. What he did for me on Zanzabar no one will ever ever convince me that that was a lie. Everything else may have been , but someday, perhaps you will allow me to learn his true feelings from the beginning that would help me he