Dear Saint Anthony, I will blessed mother Holy Spirit, Saint Joseph and Saint Jude a very special thank you from the depth of my heart for motivating Jackson to communicate with me during the last few days. I believe my questions were answered. I do believe the man loves me and did love me and it’s just sometimes confused or lives in a very, strange world where he is somewhat unstable. He is truly the love of my life, and I will not. I promise all of you interfere with his wife. If he lives with her, I will help him support his children. I love him beyond my ability to communicate to other than all of you. I believe he was put in my life for reason and hopefully that is to make me feel good about myself simplify my life and stop destroying my body , I also believe we have a passion for those children and we will write our book to help sustain him and those children. Please let him contact me. Let me not live on the edge every day. I want to ask him if I should contact him every day if