Dear Saint Anthony,blessed mother, Holy Spirit, Saint Joseph and Saint Jude a very special thank you for motivating Jackson to reach out to me yesterday. I am confused about the call as I do believe he had been drinking. I’m not sure if I have answers to my questions from the call, but it did allow me to feel that the man does care for me. For that, I thank you, I have no idea what our relationship is or whether I feel happy or sad about it, but I do feel better about the relationship than I did before the call and I know I have prayed so fervently in the last week for that call. You know I love the man dearly and cannot figure out why , he’s handsome and I’m attracted to him but there’s something deeper and he motivates me to work on the project for the kids and I think our book will be successful. If I continue to have your support I know I will once again be motivated to continue with the nonprofit and write the book. I believe J and I are bound by the universe which is our ord god