Dear Anthony, I will blessed mother holy spirit Saint Joseph Saint Jude Saint Peter Saint Michael. Please wrap your arms around me tonight and tomorrow I have been so sad and depressed the worst I’ve ever felt I even thought it be OK to die that goes against God well, I’m sorry for that. I’m just feeling sad and crying a lot, I miss Jackson so very much. I promise all of you. I would never interview with his wife and children. I knew he had to, but I never thought he was married. I don’t know what his story but I know I need to move on to know, I loved him leave it in my heart move on with my life without being sad, but I can’t do it alone. Help me to the fundraising for those kids. That’s more important than my sadness , I hate you. I beg you I beg you just get me answer those questions was he married when we were together all those things or did he go back to her after he love me but no we can’t be together or was it a scam and I need to learn from it either way I need to learn I nee