Dear Saint Anthony of blessed mother, Holy Spirit, Saint Joseph, Saint Michael, Saint Jude. You popped up at this time, so I guess you want me to reach out to you to all of you. I thank you for always protecting me and putting a circle of support around me. I’m struggling right now feel depressed. I’m drinking too much. Please please please help me stick to this diet. Lose the weight feel good about myself and move on with my life. I love my Jackson Shawnee with all my heart, but I guess we’re so different in age and culture and lifestyle that really couldn’t work as much as I wanted it to and I will still make it work if it if he wants it to and you will think we should. At least let me have closure to my questions about the lying and his why he really got involved with me. I’d love one more visit with him and then move on with my life but I don’t. I don’t know. Help me with my health help me come back to Jesus , let me join the church. Maybe I can find someone else there anyway thank