Dear Saint Anthony, our blessed mother, Holy Spirit, Saint Jude, Saint Michael and Saint Joseph please wrap your arms around me today. Please help my Jackson be safe and please watch him if he’s home and drinking. Please help me understand this crazy relationship I’m in. I’m begging you to help me understand what happened from the beginning until now. Was Jackson playing me, did he love me I’m so saddened by this whole thing and I need to resolve it once and for all been praying to all of you for over a year you’ve guided me but I am confused. Sometimes you make me feel like there’s hope for us and others I feel so foolish. I just need a resolution I need to move on with my wife I need to come back to church , I need to pray more. I need to feel at peace and help me. Please get back to where I was maybe not happy but content. I don’t know what’s in store for me. I’m gonna be 80 years old at the end of the ropes and I don’t wanna go down , sadly I want to go down swinging. Please let me