Dear Saint Anthony, our blessed mother, Holy Spirit, Saint Joseph, Saint Jude, and Saint Michael for this last year. I have been asking you to put a circle of support around me and motivate Jackson Shawnee to communicate with me to love me to be the motivator for my nonprofit. I am at the point now where I am 90% sure I want to move on without him in my life. I don’t know how to do it. I keep going back to our wonderful time in Zanzibar And I want that so badly. I want that man I fell in love with not the man who treated me so poorly when I was in Russia or the man who treated me so badly when I was met him in Dora Salam. I think he’s an alcoholic and he needs help how I could love a man half my age I don’t know there’s something about him and it’s also spiritual and I know he motivated me please put a circle around me of support around me help me I want to get over him and move on and just be contented again please help me I don’t want to contact him let him contact me, so I’m not rea